I’ve been upgraded - I am a daily joke now. What a great life. Seems less and less worth trying all the time. Every day I hate this shit more. I try harder and harder and get nowhere.
I just want a simple existence. I am not greedy. I keep taking huge steps to improve myself and it is never the right thing for anyone. I can’t keep splitting myself so many ways.
Now the person I care most about says her life is a joke. Her life with me is a joke. That makes me the punchline. Great.